And then there's the ADHD...

 because that's how I roll.

How many people, by percentage, are recluses?  How many people would rather just stay at home and not go out and interact? What's the percentage of the population?

Forbes says about 30% of the population are introverts.  So like out of 10 people you know, 3 of them don't care to go out and be sociable. 

But I wonder how many of them feel guilty about it? Like they're failing at something? Like they're passing up opportunities? How many struggle with this? 

I think a lot of it is societal pressure. There are many people who think that being a loner is some kind of defect. That it's some kind of personality disorder that should be cured. To me the personality disorder that should be cured is the one where people think everyone should be the same as them. That everyone should like the same things and do the same things and react the same way. What a dull robot-like existence that would be.  And the fact that so many people actually believe this simply adds to the reasons I'm not that fond of socializing. 

Yet, it seems we all want 'followers'.  On the social media platforms, we want likes and follows and shares. And more and more online sites are adding likes and follows and shares as part of their features. But is this our validation for being alive? How many are creating 'content', trying to be influencers, sharing tiktoks with endless variations of the same theme? They are looking for validation of their existence. Of their value. 

I started this post in April. Now it is almost June. My attention has been elsewhere. There has been an Attention Deficit, when it comes to writing.  When it comes to everything, really, concentration has been hard to come by. It just seems there are too many things to do, even though I have empirical evidence that there are actually NOT too many things to do, but perhaps too many worries about the things I'm trying to do.

Anxiety permeates my life. So many decisions, and what if I make the wrong choices? So many things are not clear-cut anymore. So much time spent on technology, keeping things running. Stuff keeps changing. Techno Traps abound. Things that would seem to be simple are suddenly complicated. Suddenly we are slaves to the technology. If the technology has a glitch, it can be costly. Try to do one thing and suddenly I am sucked into a giant labyrinthine rabbit hole of account interactions and multi-device verifications, many of which are unnecessary but are purported to be very important. These cause stress, anxiety, and the feeling that one is constantly playing catch-up. Constantly running behind, and constantly under attack by bad actors who want to steal your infor, steal your identity, steal your money, steal your time. It's exhausting.

And now it actually is June, so more distraction, more deficit of attention. Ah well.






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